Tough Day

Today has been a tough day.  As I embark on my journey of being a parent, I found out my dad has been diagnosed with lung cancer.  The details are vague at this point as additional diagnostic testing is being completed.  The doctor seems to believe dad has a good prognosis, but the testing is not complete so I am trying to stay positive, but am anxious about the results of the tests.  Everyone has been very supportive and compassionate.  And I know everyone is worried about me stressing out, but I do know there is a little one growing inside that needs me to be strong, but it is devastating to just hear the word cancer.  You hear it all the time, but when it is a family member, especially a parent, it seems to be a little tougher to process.  I appreciate all the thoughts and prayers (for the ones that pray) and will need them now and in the future as I cross this bridge as well.

12 Week Check-up

Dan and I attended my "first" baby appointment today and we got to hear the baby's heartbeat again today but no actual video/picture of the baby.  Although Dan isn't 100% sure he is the dad, if we have twins, at least one of them will be his.  I am wearing my first maternity shirt which is still sort of big because I am missing the baby belly - this picture turned out okay since Dan had to make up for his comment of not being the dad, and we went to Cheesecake Factory for dinner - so rather bloated from all the pasta - there was no room for cheesecake.  Dan and I decided to get it to go, can't forego cheesecake for goodness sakes!  So lost 3 pounds instead of gaining any weight.  I guess I will have to eat more and make sure I take my vitamins more regularly.  Grandparents on both sides seem to be very happy for us and really makes this easier.  Dan and I are more than excited about our little bundle on the way and look forward to the rest of this journey of the pregnancy and then raising our child!

New Bras

So all the pregnancy effects on the body...I always thought it happened in the latter part of pregnancy, especially the growth of your bosom.  Again, I am wrong!  I started noticing my bras were looking smaller and knew I would have to buy new bras soon, but yesterday I was having dinner with Miss Janet and lo and behold she made a comment on my bigger boobs.  I have been trying to really cover them up as I was yesterday so I was surprised to say the least she noticed them.  So I decided to buy a couple of new bras.  I got a really pretty one and I actually fit in a size C.  Wow for this only B girl!  So I was talking to Dan the othe night about my boobs growing faster than my baby bump...his suggestion, we should take weekly pictures of my boob growth...SUCH A MAN, what a mess! 

***GASP*** OUT OF BREATH

Okay so I am not even through my first trimester and I am feeling out of breath, especially when I climb stairs.  I haven't gained much weight that I can tell (haven't actually stepped on a scale since the beginning of March at the doctor's office) but I might have even lost some weight as I can fit into my size 6 jeans...wowziers haven't seen those in a long while.  I really think it has to do with the fact I haven't downing beers for the last few months.  Oh how I do miss my little friend JACK D though.  We can get reacqainted (misspelled I am sure) after the little is here and not breastfeeding anymore.  Yes, I am going to attempt breastfeeding although it really really weirds me out!!!  Yes this little baby is turning my world upside down and inside out.  I will do anything to make sure he/she is healthy and happy!

Receiving Bad News

Received bad news today - my dad who has been sick for a little while now has finally undergone diagnostic testing.  The doctor has located a 4 cm mass on his right bronchial tube near his lung.  I have been anxiously awaiting notification of his date for biopsy but the doctor's office doesn't seem to have a sense of urgency.  I am so worried and trying not to stress out about the situation, but I love my dad more than words can ever express.  I just hope he everything turns out for the best as he is my rock and I don't know if I can go this current journey without his infinite wisdom and advice!  I love you daddy!!!

Birthday Present for Daddy

     HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY.  Love Baby Dahl